ALIson's STATion

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Title: untittled
Time: 5:11 PM

WHO cares?????

I wonder why I'm feeling so friendly all of sudden. It's a big mistake to talk to maria.

To tell maria, "Hey! Come here. I want to talk to you."

And now,maria is everywhere.

One or two annoying people can really drive me crazy. Starting from 6.45am.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Title: Wounded and broken-hearted
Time: 12:42 PM

I'll always regret that the last conversation I had with M.J ended with him angrily hanging up the phone-at ;east I've long thought of Micheal's mood that day more than a decade ago as angry. I now realise the more accurate description would be "wounded". Micheal was at times among the sweetest and most talented people I met during my 35 years of covering pop music for the LOS ANGELES TIMES.

But even all this wasn't enough to prevent Micheal from striking me as one of the most fragile and lonely people I've ever meet. His heart may have finally stopped beating, but it had been fatally broken long ago.

I first met Micheal in the early days of the Jackson 5 at the family home in Los Angeles, and the memory that stands out was that Micheal,as cute and wide-eyed as an 11 year old could be,was eager to get through the interview so he could watch cartoons before having to go to bed.

** Sitting at the rear of the tour bus after a tirumphant concert in At Louis in 1981, Micheal was anxious, frequently bowing his head as he whispered answers to my questions. Despite the resurgence in sales, he complained of feeling alone-almost abandoned. He was 23.

One night when we were going through a stack of old photos, a picture of hime at 17 served as a triiger for a sudden openess.
Micheal explained hisface was so covered with acne and that his nose so large at the time the photo was taken that people would not recognise him. A rejection so painful that it contributed to a personality change in him.

He told me 'My real goal is to fulfill God's purpose. I didn't choose to sing or dance. But that's my role, and I want to do it better than anybody else.'

Sadly, though,the insecurities of his teens left Micheal hungry for more fame and success. I surveyed leading record industry executives in 1995 to determine pop's hottest properties, Micheal wasn't in the top 20.
This second public rejection must have been mortifying for Micheal because he was furious when he called me the day after the story ran in the Times.
'That hurts me.'he said, his voice quivering. I felt bad. After that, I followed his life from a distance.

I was so surprised when he annouced that he was returining to the stage in a few weeks and was even more surprised when he sold out 50 nights at the 02 Arena in London.

Maybe Micheal was stronger than I thought. It took enormous courage to be willing to go back on stage-and the ticket demand must have given him hope.

But what if he's wrong? What if he wasn't strong enough?What if he couln't live up to expectations? What if no amount of love could make him feel safe again?

The stress at times must have been immense-and,maybe in the end,it was just too much for his already broken heart.....

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Title: Say what?!
Time: 7:43 PM

I'M TRYING MY BEST ...........................

TO FIT IN MY MUM'S LITTLE BLACK DRESS.

its very similar to the one Audrey's wearing,only shorter.
It's a little tight below. Which means.....I've got a big butt.
Working on it!
Diet!
Exercise!

Btw....ALI LOHAN can sing?????

Monday, July 6, 2009

Title: I heard that...
Time: 4:42 PM

I received some comments about my blog. It seems that you guys see funny images...unknown fonts. Is that true? I haven got a clue. Every time I view my blog, it looks pretty normal to me.
IF it's true, I don't know what happened. And dunno how to fix and I'm lazy to fix it. So, ignore it. If it really really really bother you,maybe I'll consider to crack my brains and solve it.
But so far,I see nothing like an unknown font.

GOD!!! what happened to my triceps? Did I torture you during TKD session? Why are you doing this to me?
The pain is overwhelming. Especially in the morning. I can't push myself off the bed. I can't lift my arm at 90 degrees...further that that, I'd die of pain.
I can't wash my hair properly (I wonder if its even clean?) Haha...no worries. No kutu.
Basically,I'm like a disable person. There's nothing I can do....hope my triceps recover....fast.

short post for disable people like me. =)
maya

next on a article I find it touching. )=

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Title: I had no idea what to write,at 6.05AM
Time: 10:04 AM

3/7/09..someone's birthday, so obviously I had to give him a card.
The problem is,my mum gave it to me on Friday morning,when I'm having my breakfast.(BREAD!~)
I'm half asleep,hair all messed up,groggy...OH,you know how you feel when you woke up in the morning! But partly because I slept at 11pm on Thursday night.

HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE DAY. I'm feeling so lazy that I refuse to move a single muscle.... if possible. Luckily I did not let out my not-enough-sleep anger on some one else. That would be REALLY bad and hurtful at times. Because I know how it feels.

EXPLORE RACE.
It's fine actually. It's very normal to make mistakes,but it's better if you avoid them. If not,mistakes can teach you lessons you'll always remember.
So ROXY AND PRISCY,DON'T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF.

BEFORE EXPLORE RACE, ugrh! why stupid moments like this always stuck in my mind? I had mentally prepare myself for a short speech. It's time~~~,and I screwed up.
Pn. Aliza was like 'why don't you people prepare before you come up and talk instead of wasting time.'
Fine~. I just trying to be spontaneous. Live with it.

Anyway,pictures says a million words.

the cards

this is what I wrote.

this is a golden key from poh kong. it indicates freedom.

that's all,my day will start off with MUSIC LESSON AND TUITION. JOY~~~!
While other people get to watch TRANSFORMERS. huh! (:

love,
sumin.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Title: WOW
Time: 6:33 PM

I don't normally do this. It's out of boundary!
Well, this does not mean I'm NOT NORMAL.
Since my brother came back from Australia, I've been playing computer games and updating blog. Everyday...well, at least I skipped Tuesday.
(have you been wondering: WHAT? H1N1!!! well,forget it and sleep well because it's been 2 weeks and I feel fine. Except for Angie...have you checked yet? haha...)

But, when he's back at Australia, I have more self control. I just wanted to accompany him with his favorite games and all....trying to spend every bit of time that God gave us.

* DAMN! what's wrong with the internet? I'm visiting Facebook right now and the page is still blank. PROFILE *CLICK*......blank. HOME *CLICK*....blank.

Anyway,have you guys heard of F.FAWCETT?
I skipped tuition today for an awesome dinner.
I am thinking whether I should ponteng tomorrow.
I'm wondering where will I have my awesome dinner.
Leong is REALLY friendly. except he says the word 'FCUK'. trying to ignore every time he say it.
Wens profile is LOADING...like forever.
Forever....hmm...Shia is the first thing that comes to my mind when I see 'forever'.
Last year....last photo...
I think our family is getting bigger and we become closer. A good sign.
TaeKwanDo will last for 2 hours 2mr...
(all above: random)

Anyways....I figure I won't on my laptop tomorrow-CONTROL!
So, I would like to wish my brother....

a

very

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! YOU'RE 21!!!

big boy...big brother.

ALL THE BEST AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.

love,
ma+son.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Title: Out for a movie (saturday post)
Time: 3:31 PM

HEy!

I had tuition at 3 o'clock(on Saturday). BIOlogy....sigh* CaSS's dad kindly fetched me home. When I reached home...I felt relieved. But guess what? My Bio teacher lose her voice! So she can't teach us that day. I wonder what happened to the others....only 4 of us turned up.
About 7pm I make my way to Pavilion(spelling?). I make my way? no...not driving yet. Daddy did the driving. We had dinner first. Our show starts at 9.45pm. Plenty of time.

We wondered around, searching for nice food. Finally we settle down with Vietnamese food. I ordered a Hanoi-style beef noodles. It's 8/10. (: Unfortunately I did not bring the camera. The settings in the restaurant is....pretty?
Oh! Let rewind this.
As we are moving from level to level....I walked pasted MNG.
Neon green wordings spread across the glass - SALE! 50%
'Mum! MNG's having sale!'
'What? really?! Lets go.'
'Later mum...fill tummy first.'
Hahaa...shopping craze.

After dinner I did went down to MNG....nothing much!
The bags and shoes are awesome. I spotted a faded denim jacket. It's pretty cool, wanted to have it. But I already have one from Levi's,which I seldom wear. So....I see no point buying it.

TRANSFORMER time!
Let me tell you something- OP PRIME SURVIVED.
He...it? died somewhere in the middle of the story. Inside my heart, its screaming 'NOOOOOO! DON'T DIE! DON'T DIE!'
But towards the end,it survived!
I smiled to myself. He's one of my favorite! He's wise in his own ways. Bumblebee is one of my favorite too.
New characters are awesome too. Especially the twins. Mudflat and ???

Conclusion...it's a must-watch movie.
DON'T MISS IT!

That's all for now.
ma-son
p/s: TM NET ....something is really wrong with you. You died and left me miserable.

A gift from my dad's friend-all the way from London. thnx uncle richard!

this is what's inside the box.